The World awaits people getting over themselves.

It's not about you it's about us.

If you withhold- and do't share (talk and truly listen) and participate
then we all lose-
  I  lose out and so do you. 

We need you to participate, you give us life.

Participation is engagement with others, Giving and Getting Energy.

Participation requires enthusiasm and presence.

Remove Emotional obstacles that stand in the way.
These obstacles are like a container that distinguish the Ego, which lives inside.
To get past the container wall, just express what you are inauthentic about, what you fake or think you fake.  and then confront why you are faking, face the reason of being afraid.  This clears away the obstacle.
Fear is the container into which we live our lives-  it's honorable for each of us to persuit getting out of it to Live and to Love.

Live to Love.

 

Well, I just reread where I was, and Yes, That Too Did Pass.  Now I see the world filled with really great people- it's just getting to them, the real person inside- that's the trick.  So we have this wall- I'm ok with that. 

I think the reason I felt bad was that I was giving too much- I was out of balance in a sense- I had more energy inside and wanted the outside to match that.

If we give too much, without positive feedback, we feel robbed in a sense or mad at ourselves for wasting energy, really just misdirecting energy.  I know that the positive energy is great, it's a gift and I don't need to deflate that energy just because I am having difficulty directing it.  So I choose to live in the possibility that I am surrounded by opportunities to effectively direct my positive energy- I think that's called Flow.

 And I'm into several philosphies now- Integral and Landmark Forum.
I understand Andrew Cohen is also an integral philospher- so I will read one of his books next.
I just noticed the similarites in ideas.  Landmark Forum says that  

There is no meaning

   And there is no meaning that there is no meaning.
And Cohen says that  

enlightenment means realizing "nothing ever happened"; and one sees nothing by looking into the face of God.
So we have no meaning and nothing happened.  OK, I live from that- or can I?  Is that really integral or is it the Subjective Individual quadrant only?  Hey, I really want to integrate all the quadrants so maybe I can be there sometimes.  Here's a question?  Is the goal in Integral philosphy to live in all 4 quadrants at once or is that even possible?  Or are we supposed to move around the quadrants, saying in each for brief periods? 
-Just working on being well rounded and integral here.

OK, I didnt' read or listen to any Ken Wilber material today.  But I'll write anyway bacause my mood is going down.  The problem is, I seem to be surrounded by unhappy people- really angery people.  It's like everyone is unaware of the awesom world we live in- and I can't bring them out if the nightmare they seem to be in.  Any attempt I make seems to be effort for nothing.    So I'm losing my drive to smile and to reach out- I'm getting no response.  What is wrong with this world?   Everyone seems so negative?  OK, I know I shouldn't expect a response from people.  But I do.  That could be the key to how I live introverted- I'm too reactive to other peoples negativity.  I need to get back to reading..and I need to remeber my goal- to see the world differently...not how I always have seen it....it will come...I just need it to stay in an eleveted state when I get there.

Today I listened to the first CD of Ken Wilbers given to me by a friend.  What I got from the CD was that there are the quadrants and there are Lines.  How many lines though, I'm not real clear about.  But Lines are areas of specialization, like talents people have.  Cognative development is one, art is one, moral development is one.  I sure would liket o have a list of all the lines they came up with.  OK, then before that it was the quadrants, which is the pronoun way of dividng up the world into I We It and It's.  So then I have moral development and so does It and we and IT's. 
How do I see the world different becasue of all this division?  We'll I thoguht I was in the I only, now I view from the other quadrants.  This has taken me out of myself.  That's powerful! 
Next I'll get into Level's - that's CD #2.

If nothing else I feel intellectual to ponder these deep ideas.

 

I just read through, though it took me a few weeks,  Ken Wilber's book a Brief History of Everything and I feel like I've taken a spiritual leap!  It's like I jumped to a higher state of being.   I intend to stay.  Ok, I hope to stay, and am afraid to let doubt into the picture, so maybe by writing about it I can capture it, and return if I drift away, back down to my lower levels.

 How did I get here, to this state of happiness, by soul searching or bipolar swing?  I'm not sure.  I have found that if you search long and hard - you will arrive somewhere better.  I think difficult reading is therapeutic for me.   The first time I moved up a level I was after reading Krisnamurti ( another difficult read), I was moved after taking the Landmark Forum, then there was Kabbalah, now I'm reading Ken Wilber and guess what another jump! 

I think I'm onto something great here though.  No, I feel like I'm on cloud nine.  I'm in the Flow; I'm in touch with parts of my brain I haven't used before.  I'm using parts together, using my whole brain, like going into further reaches.  So how am I able to reach further?  Spiritual growth is all I can attribute it to by using all quadrants and recognizing the levels. I now have tools to get out of the Interior Subjective quadrant that I've been stuck in.  This is good stuff!